I decided to stay!

Sometime you will have to decide between `to go` or `to stay`. Be sure, any of them will hurt someone, and will change your life suddenly! I, particulaly, decided to stay. Maybe some people think lack of courage, or self-indulgence, maybe other people think about independence and determination. What matters is what is inside me, nothing more, and if anyone questions me about what I think about this, I will answer: I think lack of courage and determination. I was in the middle. The decision, undecided, but I was full of desire to take the risks. Confusing, I know! On one side was the lap eternal and the affection of people who will protect me, always. Across, people who lend their lap and their shoulders, their cries and their laughter - who in someway has show me that everything depend solely on me. In the end, all people let us separate, parents and children, brothers and sisters, but the ties will continue - the absence will increase now of later. I decided to begin this now, in an absence full of presence - I decided to stay. I know those who are far, one day will understand me, and will have pride. I know to whom stayed far will hurt, will tighten, but will understand. We are created for the world and our own decidions. I decided present myself to the world. I decided show myself. I decided this for myself, for my happiness, even if some do cry, and however selfish: I decided to save some of my tears. I will stay with me; with my certainties and uncertainties; with my happiness and sorrows; with my loves and friends; with my routine; with my learning; with my pains and flowers; with my lyricism and romanticism; my achievements will be infinite while they last; my achievements will be infinite for always. I will stay with my synesthesia. I will stay with my dreamliker and my smile.